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Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in...
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May 21st]
love youu.


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November 8th]
my new username is withmyradio_x_

So yeah, add me bitches ... or at least comment first :P
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November 7th]
Mwahahaha ... two more hours of this damned art exam .... I took lovely pictures of it ... tell me what you all think ...

I'd fight them all offCollapse )
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November 6th]
Mcfly next September!

Doesn't make up for the missing out of MCR tomorrow though ... but I'll get over it.
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November 4th]
I wanna see Mcfly.
So bad.
I also want a kiss.
Is that so bad of me?
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You know you all luff me. [Friday
November 4th]

» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:


» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
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Homophobes... [Friday
November 4th]
So yeah Neopets is homophobic because for a topic I said

Jenn//♥ I'm a girl and would like to talk to one of you pretty girls.

Then for a message I said something along the lines of:

Hey, I'm pretty bored and sick of all the little n00bs getting away with having threads that say :
"Girls chat only **Guys sneak in through back**
So I'm making this topic as a friendly chat and yes I won't lie - I'd like to find a pretty girl to talk with and be friends with.

Some bugger reported me and now I'm suspended ... for writing that I'm looking for a pretty girl to talk with.
This isn't fair.

...In other news my art exam is today and I've just spent three hours making a room like sculpture ... very cool.


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November 3rd]
Neopets is Homophobic.
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Leave me alone. [Tuesday
November 1st]
This isn't fair.
I'm not racist and if you knew me you would know fine well im not.
~Just like im not homophobic.
Get off my back.
I'm sick of people saying things when they don't know the whole truth. I'm sick of people taking sides because it's not fair. I'm sick of having everyone mad at me because of the lies people are spreading.
I am NOT racist, and I believe that in saying someone looks like a monkey, just because they do, just like James Robinson looks like one, thats not racist. I believe that something is only racist if it is intended to be racist. I did not intend to offend anyone but I'm being punished for it.
This isn't fair.
Get off my back.

I'm a nice girl and I'm sick of being made out to look like a bitch.
Whenever I fall out with Samn n Morgan I'm the one made out to be bad when it's ususally not me at all. And I'm the one to be blamed for it all.

Okay I'm going to go because I know if I keep this up I'll start crying again, and that is not my style.

Love you Brad x

P.S .... Whoever said I was full of s**t in the post i made a few days ago needs to learn the language ... you spelt most of the words wrong.

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October 29th]
Okay two more days till halloween
I really can't wait.
I'm sooooooo looking forward to tonight at Aimee's party thing.
I'm not sure if it's for her birthday or for Halloween, maybe both.
So I got her a card.
I hope thats enough because I don't really know her.
But she's canny and great so yeah.
I don't actually know how many people are going, I mean, I know that a few are going but I think a few more are going to.
I hope James goes.
He still has my luffly jacket.
And I wanna see his hair.
emo styl-E.
Oh and I need to give him his shirt back (There is noway on earth I am going to part with his tie - it's soooo .. nice)
I think I have an obsession with ties.
I have James' and Sams school one. I just need one from Sean or Brad or someone so I can have a St Mics one.
Then I'll be a happy bunny.
Aww Mikes moaning cause he wants to go to whitby but has no way of getting there.
I was gonna go cause of Goth Weekend and everything
but decided I wanted to go to Brads last night and I wanna go to Aimee's tonight so I just stayed here in Billog.
I'll get over it
I think theres another one in March.
If not March.

I'm still tired.

Will update later or tomorrow.

*hee hee*
Thought you might want to read a wierd conversation seen as im bored.

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October 28th]
Note To Self : I miss you Terribly

I'll miss all of you when this walk is over.
The flowers of my past are starting to wilt and the kiddie pink nail varnish is starting to chip.
It won't be long before my walk of life is through.
But belive me when I say there is no one I'll miss more than you.
My blood runs through my veins oh so slowly.
MY poetic suicide.

okay feeling poetic heres more.

My poetic suicide tastes like cynide
As my hands are slewn across the floor
My eyes search the bloody tide
And my emotional body can't take much more

She steals my soul with just one touch
My heart is trapped in her heart shapped lock
My mind is telling me its oh so much
As my life in her hands for she to mock

I bite my lip till blood I spill
My tears fill the gold plated frame
She looks at me moves in for the kill
My heaven was traded in for fame
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October 28th]
I pushed people away yesterday.

OMFG ... sam and morgan are soooo .. EURGH ... so I'm racist because I said Usher looked like a monkey ... he does ... and not because he's black (or whatever word is politically correct) it's because he DOES look like a monkey ... if he were white I'd call him a monkey ... I'm not racist!

Get over yourselves both of you.
Stop trying to find excuses to hate me.
and stop trying to hint that you want a fight...

"Sam said I should kick ur arse" - Yes morgan well if he said that ... bring it on .. theres no point.

Get off my back.
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October 28th]
The first person to decipher the post below gets a cool unique icon or friends only banner made for them XD
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October 28th]
Hether gell lether go,

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wether ghy wether gont thether gey jether gust lether geave mether ge ether ga lether gone.

Did you understand that?
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October 27th]
The Suicide Girl
54% Sexy-Cute, 29% Dark-Light, 14% Artsy-Stylish

Cute, Dark, and Artsy, it's the Suicide Girl. A cousin of the Goth Girl, she's a little more on the cute side than the sexy side. Her interesting hair and impish smile make a certain kind of person wonder how her unique outfits would look lying crumpled beside the bed. By the way, if you don't get this category name, you don't know your Palahniuk... or your internet porn.

If you liked my test, Please rate it highly! Thanks!

Also, make sure to check out my Beautiful Faces Test if you haven't already.

See All The Categories
Sexy Dark Artsy The Goth Girl
Sexy Dark Not Artsy or Stylish The Brooding Poet
Sexy Dark Stylish The Mistress
Sexy Not Dark or Light Artsy The Hippie Chick
Sexy Not Dark or Light Not Artsy or Stylish The Hot Friend
Sexy Not Dark or Light Stylish The Sorority Girl
Sexy Light Artsy The Actress
Sexy Light Not Artsy or Stylish Your Friend's Sister
Sexy Light Stylish The Prom Queen
Cute Dark Artsy The Suicide Girl
Cute Dark Not Artsy or Stylish The Bad Girl
Cute Dark Stylish The Bettie Page Girl
Cute Not Dark or Light Artsy The Art Student
Cute Not Dark or Light Not Artsy or Stylish The Girl Next Door
Cute Not Dark or Light Stylish The Debutante
Cute Light Artsy The New Age chick
Cute Light Not Artsy or Stylish The Favorite Friend
Cute Light Stylish The Cheerleader

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

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You scored higher than 53% on Sexy-Cute

free online dating free online dating
You scored higher than 4% on Dark-Light

free online dating free online dating
You scored higher than 0% on Artsy-Stylish
Link: The Your Type of Girl Test written by dgc20e on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test
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I'm feeling oh so poetic [Wednesday
October 26th]
Oh Kurt. Your poetic life and even more astounding death.
Rest in Peace for you shall always be loved, cherished and remembered by those who live and want to lead the poetic, disturbing, peaceful but yet oh so tragic life you did enjoy and learn to hate.
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October 26th]
No. Correct that. I do love you Brad.
I love you more than I could ever tell you.
Without you I'm nothing. I'm worthless.
But with you I feel alive and worth everything you say I am.
I love you.
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October 26th]
I feel sick.
Times like these happen and I want to sit in a corner in a dark place where noone can hurt me or feel anything for me. I'm sick with all the pain. I want to kill it all. I want to kill my soul, it's black enough already. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up. I just want everything to be the way it was. I want to feel safe and secure with my family. I'm sick of laughing along with everyone and pretending im good and okay and amazing.
I'm sick of pretneding that I'm over everything and that when his name pops up in a conversation i don't feel a heart aching twinge that makes me want to feel sick. I'm sick of seeing his screen name and thinking about his new gorgeous girlfriend who he loves already. I'm sick of pretending to everyone thqat im feeling so damn alright with everything.
I'm sick of feeling like a hypocrite.
Because thats what I am.
I'm a fucking hypocrite.
I'm saying all this yet I'm with Brad.
But I can't feel much for brad now, not yet, and thats killing me becuase I know i can feel something for him. I'm all confused.
I want my life back.
I hate the fact that my dad resents everything I do.
I hate the fact I'm too anxious to go out on my own anymore because of the threats I get to my email.

I've taken the painkillers.
I want to stop the pain.
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October 25th]
Take the quiz: "Which Dead Rock Star Are You?"

Kurt Cobain
You are Kurt Cobain! You're grundgy, twisted and very talented. You have a certain charm and individuality that sets you a part from many. You are beautiful! Oh, he died in 1994 from a gun shot wound to the mouth. Suicide.</strike>

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October 25th]
[ mood | Image hosted by Photobucket.com Happy]

Okay so my legs hurt .. stupid walking around fooking billingham for 8 hours.
It was fun though. Sean met up with me at like half 11 in the morning and then we went to call for people but they wouldn't come out. It was funny because even if they did come out it was only for like 10 mins then we were left on our own again. I got to talk to him about loads which was cool and him and Brad are coming over today to help me look after Katie lol (Well they're just coming over while I look after katie lol)
I'm going to an early halloween party tonight with Katie and I've invited my luffly Sam with us cause she rocks.
I shall get pics.
Will be fun.

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